I always had a fetish for being spanked and for being controlled. It really was a turn on for me with my first sexual partner to be TOLD to do things – mild though they were…such as to take my clothes off …NOW…even if riding in a car with him at night. Years later…when internet became readily available to me, as I searched for spanking stuff, I came across BDSM stuff, though had NO clue what it was.
Then, when I met my Master. He taught me so many things….so, so many. I remember when I first started embarking into real BDSM with him, who was quite experienced, we would talk about limits and what we liked. I remember that at the time I didn’t like really hard spanking. I remember saying that I didn’t want marks ever left. Wow! Have I changed! I know want more, more, more. I like it harder. I WANT marks left. I feel proud of marks and I actually feel sad if I have been spanked and then the next day don’t see anything, which actually is pretty often. I don’t think I mark easily. 😦 I also wanted no part of having sex with others…..LOL…Wow! Have I changed! Now, I enjoy when we swing. I still don’t know about a second sub, but, my Master is good, really, really good. He is the one who very subtly changes me into what he wants.