As is common with a lot of bloggers, I was away, but now am back. Why do bloggers do that? I can only speak for myself. Sometimes as i am blogging, i start to want to reveal myself more and more and then I get scared about revealing too much. I worry about someone finding out who I really am and then my blogging begins to decline into nonexistence. I also know that my Master reads my blog, I think?, at least I know that he is able to if he wants and I worry about revealing in a hot moment something that I really don’t mean. I know him well enough to know that in so doing, it may cause enormous turmoil over something that I really didn’t mean. I don’t know how to combat that? And so…again…blogging into nonexistence. On the other hand, who do I have to talk to about my relationships and my thoughts on life. I know that my Master would like it to be him, but I want to be able to freely express feelings without getting into trouble and so sometimes I struggle. Sometimes to the point that I don’t want to struggle…and therefore, I don’t want to blog. I am feeling lately especially the last week or so, to want to blog , to express my feelings in writing, and wanting to get back into some of my previous blogging friends and connections even though they were only barely barely aquaintances. I think what really has me excited is the thought of a bloggin buddy. I hope that i can find one.