I like being spanked. I’ve always had a kink for it. In fact, I had a kink for it way, way before I ever knew anything else about BDSM. When I first entered into the BDSM scene and began to discuss my likes and dislikes, it was quite easy. First and foremost…no real pain…no marks…and basically I knew nothing else BECAUSE I didn’t know any other of the hundreds of play aspects that might be involved. (It actually wasn’t until I started filling out profiles on sites that I began to discover these things. I had to ask my Master everything.) Gradually, though, over time (many years..5+), I started to become more and more accepting of more things and actually wanting to explore and experience more things, including a little pain.
On the total opposite end of the kink of liking a spanking, is the spanking as a result of a consequence. When my Master gets mad at me for some reason and demands I pull down my pants and lean over the bed, I immediately get so so mad and at the same time, upset. He usually spanks the crap out of my behind and I usually wind up in tears. It is more because he is delivering the spanking in a real mode of anger and disappointment in me and that kills me.
But, during what is “play”, I began to discover some interesting aspects of “pain”. First of all, I learned that the anticipation of pain got all my senses on high alert…all of my senses, including my sex sense. You know, the sense that otherwise is called, “arousal”! I also was experiencing that hard spankings were letting me feel MORE controlled, MORE owned, MORE dominated. And, that led to wanting more and harder spankings, obviously. And whenever my Master says, “Good Girl”, then I KNOW that I have “taken” something that he desired for me to take and that also makes me want it more and want it harder.
I also began to experience other kinds of pain, like mild nipple torture…wow!..intense! But, the more intense, the better. I think the real key to increasing intensity has been, in my case, to go ever so slowly that I’ve not realized that I was receiving in increasing intensity. (Of course this also goes for other things beside pain…but that is another post.)
Then there is something else that I discovered. If my Master starts a spanking very mild and increases ever so slowly, all the while continuing the spanking, I start to get so freaking aroused that I start to moan. It is really weird when I hear myself. I’ve heard about some who can orgasm this way. I don’t think that I would ever be able to do that, but I really, really enjoy a spanking that is bringing me to that point.
So, to answer the question of whether pain is to like or not to like, the answer is….IT DEPENDS! If I’m being given a spanking as a punishment for something that I’ve done and I know that my Master is upset with me, then I am NOT happy about the pain. It really hurts bad and I’m hating it all the while and I usually break down quickly and cry. BUT, …if my Master and I are playing and I start to get a spanking, then I am aroused. I like it. I need it. I want some more of it!!!