Day 6 – What do you feel are the roots of your submission? Do you think it has something to do with childhood? Is it a relationship management tool as in the practice of domestic discipline? Is it a sexual thrill or something else?
I actually think that it is in my DNA, somehow. I think that I have always tended to want to be the follower, not the leader. As a child, my parents felt it was very important that we were independent and self-reliant. My parents insisted that I live on my own before marrying, so that I could see that I did not NEED a man to take care of me. Interestingly, I want a man to take care of me! hmmmmmm… I honestly do not know why I feel so connected to being submissive, but I do. Once I began to learn what all submission was, I began more and more to identify with it. And, yes, it IS also a sexual thrill for me to be dominated. But, I also really crave that a man wants to take care of me, to have me as his treasure. In return, I want to serve.