My first reaction is “ouch”. Okay, my Master has fucked me in the ass several times. I’m always extremely apprehensive about it because, first of all, it hurts. Sometimes it hurts less than others, but it always hurts, period. Usually, once he gets it in and then starts fucking me, it doesn’t hurt at all and, depending on how much I’ve had to drink, it can feel really really good. But, pulling it out hurts, too. And then, I guess because my little asshole has been stretched, it often hurts for a day or so. This could also be painful because we don’t do it that often and we don’t do any assplay in between.
The other thing that worries me is worrying about getting him dirty from my ass. I know that he must not mind too much or he would say or do something. I’ve mentioned before that maybe I should enema, but he doesn’t really respond one way or the other.
My Master has mentioned several times in the past few months that he LOVES ass fucking. I’m perplexed, as usual. Because number one – uh, if he loves it so much, then why doesn’t he do it? Number two – is, uh, yeah, is it number 2? And if so, then he should say something.
There a few things that I have trust issues about. On the one hand, I TRUST that my Master will tell me the truth. But on the other hand, if he is afraid it will hurt my feelings, then I don’t trust that he will tell me the truth. Sorry. it’s true.
On that note, I’m wondering if I should like have a fixed day of the week that I should do an enema in prep for ass fucking? Like maybe every Friday night? But, would that be too much enema? I’ve heard that it is not good for you to do too much. On the other hand, I worry that my Master might then expect that I’m expecting it. Ugh! Unsure what to do!