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Wildwestangel, Thank-you for your post! I had to address this with a post of my own, because so much of it sounds EXACTLY like me. In fact, my Master and I have had recent discussions about my need for friendship. Ugh!
Coincidentally, I am also a strong professional woman. I’m not all that assertive, but I do have two assistants, so I am definitely an order giver to an extent, when at work, but have to change that mode when I get home.
You mentioned that you called one of your subbie friends. Well, I don’t have any subbie friends. I’ve craved having a friend that I could talk openly with about my life. My Master has encouraged to me to get online and search around and that is some of the reason that I started this blog long ago. I don’t have really close vanilla friends, either. I keep telling my Master that I really don’t have time for friends. And it is true. I’m not a good friend. L I want to be. But I fail.
Opportunities arise all the time from other vanilla women, mostly work or old friends – Let’s get together. Let’s talk on the phone. Wait, talk on the phone? I hate to talk on the phone. I know. I’m not normal I don’t have time for that! Especially if we are not going to talk about BDSM at all. ! I am so happy that texting is considered ok etiquette now because that is the way I prefer to talk- quickly, to the point, and if I don’t text back for awhile it is because I got busy and I’ll get back to you when I can, ok?
Maybe it is because it is hard to have an honest, true, sharing relationship with someone who is vanilla, because you are NOT sharing SO much. I mean, my BDSM is a huge part, the driving part, of my life. How can I feel like sharing about the mundane things when I REALLY want to talk about the BDSM aspect. I enjoy WordPress and other blogs, because even though I have not developed any subbie friends as of yet, I still feel that I connect when I’m able to read and relate to other’s posts. So, thank-you, Wildwestangel! J