Master Being Mysterious Turns into Humiliation for me

Sorry that I’m just now getting back to the mysterious night. After I was teased into thinking I might be punished by being fucked by multiple guys, and then finding out it was all just a tease, my Master still had other plans that I didn’t know about.

We sat down to watch some TV and my Master suddenly texted me a number and said, ” Text Lydia and ask her for permission to suck my cock later.” I was like, “what?”

Let me explain who Lydia was. Lydia was someone that I really didn’t know. My Master had found her online and had recently started chatting it up with her. I had never talked or texted her. But, I knew that he was chatting a bit with her and he had told me a thing or two about her. This was a commonplace thing in our life. But telling me to do this task? This was not something that I had done before! I was embarrassed and reluctant. What if she cussed me out or something. Did she know about this ahead of time? I couldn’t even concentrate on the movie because I was slightly mortified. But, I did as my Master requested and texted her. She responded back with, “Yes, you have my permission”. I said, “TY” and she said “You’re welcome.”

So, later, we go to the bedroom and he tells me to get undressed and lay across his lap where he then proceeds to smack my bottom while admonishing me for disobeying him and humiliating me more by talking about how I had to ask for permission to suck his cock. He lets me suck his cock and then fuck him, all the while telling me that he should put me in the corner and force me to listen to him fuck Lydia.

That would be sooo humiliating. I feel my face getting red just thinking about it. And the thought of being humiliated, and my face being red and having no control over the situation like that, makes me feel so submissive that I feel hot and my pussy tingles a bit.

What confusing feelings!

Can anyone relate?

Master Being Mysterious – UGH!

Last night,

While I got all ready for this mysterious play date, my Master asked me, “I’ve never asked you before, but do you have a problem with black men?”. My response was, “No, of course not.” (In fact, once I had a wonderful summer with a guy from the Dominican Republic, who was very dark. He must have forgotten.) We were supposed to leave at 10pm and right before 10, my Master was like, “uh, it might be a bit later. It’s hard to coordinate with this many people. I was like, “what???” My anxiety went up a bit. He said, “You trust me, don’t you?” I said, “yes, sir, of course” and “May I please have a glass of wine?” lol

A little later my Master said, “Well, Damn, forget it. It’s not going to happen tonight.” (I didn’t know whether to be relieved or disappointed. Ha!) I said, “ok, are you going to share?” He was like we were going over to Matt and Nickie’s house. Ohhhh…how funny, NOT. This was a couple that we had played with a few times before, but it had been awhile. My Master was such a tease!!! As it turned out, though, Matt and Nickie had to cancel.

But, the night was not over. My Master still intended to humiliate me. More later.

Master is being mysterious.

Okay, so her Master is being mysterious, you might think. So what? So, usually he is not mysterious about us going out to play/ have sex. In fact, he has NEVER said what he said to me a little while ago. 

He said, “just letting you know that we will be going out to have sex later.” Cool! I thought. He must have found someone new to play with since he didn’t name names. Usually he follows this, no, he ALWAYS follows this with details about the couple or single, names, ages, bi or not, pics, etc.   But this time, he didn’t. I just looked at him. He said- what? I said – details? He wouldn’t give me any details!

And then he reminded me of how I disobeyed him earlier in the day. I laughed. He said something to the efeect of next time I would remember tonight before disobeying him. 

I am torn between- yeah right! And – uh oh!

Details later.

Why did I give this story a “!”?

This is a response to Master’s request as to why I reposted the story from VanillaMom and why I said that I liked it and why I gave it a “!”. Story here: https://vanillamom.wordpress.com/2015/03/21/bound-to-serve-1/

Many things in this story by VanillaMom, made me hot. My Master asked me to specify what it was that made me give this story an exclamation. So here are my thoughts:

I love the way this story seems realistic. This situation might be one that my Master might enjoy. I know that he likes me to dress up in lingerie and stockings. Posing in such a way in wait for him makes me very hot. The thought of not looking up to see what is going on. The submission to what will happen next. I like that. I want to be submissive and at times, not to have a say, just to have to do. The slight chance that others might see their Dominance and Submission is terrifying, yet exciting to me. Since she didn’t know what was going to happen, she was scared, yet she obviously was in total trust. I have that trust, too and would feel the same, I believe. It made me very hot, that in the story, he said, “open” and she was to spread wide for him her ass cheeks for him to use her pussy or her ass as he pleased. Having her asshole and pussy slightly whipped is extremely hot to me, even though I, myself, am not sure how much I can actually take. I love the way that real life entered in and it was time for dinner. She served him dinner, which I ADORE. This is not something that I normally do for my Master, because he is very picky and prefers to make his own dinner to his own specifications. But I love the idea of serving him, like a waitress or servant. The thought of my master eating his food off my belly, ok, that is really NOT a turn on for me, but the thought of him controlling my food like that – YES! Maybe not for me to eat off of the floor like a dog, although I would if he desired, but giving me a plate and removing it when he felt fit, is very submissive to me. Later, the breast torture – I am finding that it turns me on immensely to have my breasts and nipples slapped and tortured. It kind of humiliates me. I think that since I have have average or smallish boobs, that my boobs have not been much of a focus in my life and therefore I am NOW feeling an immense feeling when attention is paid to them. I wonder if others feel this way. My Master loves my tits and often says or shows me. This is so different and new that I feel immense pleasure and submission when he pays attention to them. I am proud that he desires to touch them or squeeze them or pinch or slap or otherwise torture them. I actually feel my clit swell with attention to my breasts. Yeah, its awesome.
An interesting idea to refrigerate lube and butt plug. I get the feeling that my Master may like to do more with my ass, but is reticent due to my reactions at times. I’m not sure though. I wish I knew. I guess here is an issue for communication. LOL I also like the rubber band torture. Just another thing that I think that my Master might like me to “take it”. It turns me on more to know that he wants it and desires it, versus that I might like a little pain. Understand the difference? I also loved that in the story, he sucked her clit, which I love. And I loved the fact that she was tied and could not resist. That is actually scary for me, but I want to experience it more, and therefore, the thought is hot. And then, last, but not least, I LOVED the way they rested entwined together after sex. Mmmmmmmmm! Yep, definitely a “!”.

“You Can Take It For Me!”

There are many words and phrases that we, as submissives, desire, yes, CRAVE, to hear. Over time, different words or phrases have made my insides cinch up and my face feel hot and I desire to serve. I love to hear, “Good Girl!”, but most recently, a new phrase has caught my submissive ear.

The phrase, “You can take it for me!” is such an intense phrase with so much to it. I have come to realize that I desire to please so much, that I want desperately to make my Master sexually pleased, in whatever way he desires. If it is in pain or degradation, then I want to do it. Sometimes, ok, a lot of the time, I am a total baby when it comes to pain. Quite a quandary, considering I like pain once I get to that certain point after buildup. And I desire pain a lot of times. Like when I’m not feeling good about myself or when I am really stressed. It really is a stress reliever. But when I hear the words, “You can take it for me!” I notice that I instantaneously become so compliant. It’s really kind of weird.

Anyone else experience this?

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She checked one last time to make sure all was in place before His arrival back home. They didn’t always have the time for this, but when it was possible, she made it happen. Imagining the pleasure on His face, she quickly moved to the front door as she heard His car turn into the driveway. Dressed as He preferred – black wisps of lace covering tits and pussy, shiny black stiletto’s on her feet- she moved into position. Head down, offering her submission. Ass and pussy up, offering her body. Her arms  stretched back along her sides, ready to open herself for His pleasure. She quivered in anticipation. His shoe scuffed the steps, His footfalls sounded on the front porch, His key slid into the lock. The door opened, and if she’d had the daring to look at Him, she would have seen Him pause and smile. He stood with…

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I found the video link below on a blog I follow: http://lovesexandmarriageblog.com/im-so-excited-vibra-king/

The video is soooo hot.watching it this pm made me so hot. My Master heard the sounds coming from my phone and his cock became enormously engorged and inviting to my mouth. I licked and sucked his cock and balls until he couldn’t take it any longer, grabbing a fistful of hair and forcing my face down on his balls and his cock gagging my throat as he came and came. Mmmmmmmm so hot!!!

Vibraking Compilation http://www.redtube.com/562395 via @RedTube