A Couple Hooks Up With a Guy

Yep. That’s what we did last night. My Master will tell me that we may have plans tonight. But he doesn’t tell me what/where/details. I hate/love that. On the one hand, it forces me to trust him. On the other hand, I want to know the juicy details.

So I start to get ready. Shower, shave, paint my toenails a new blue color. CUTE! And then sit at my computer to await instructions. After some time, he says that the first plans fell through. We were supposed to meet up with a guy whose wife was out of town, but he had a free hall pass. (Really? Who does that?) But, my Master said that the wife was going to call and chat to verify. OK..that sounds better. But, anyway, he went to a bar first and it was getting too late, so my Master dropped that.

It was getting later and later and honestly I was getting tired. 2am is pretty late. I drank a stevia cola for the caffeine along with my beer to calm my nerves. Ok, he says, we have plans are you still up to it? Sure I say. Because I am a Good Girl. I am my Daddy’s Good Little Girl and I know it will please him.

We head to this other guys house whose wife is also “out of town”. I’m leery, but ok. We meet the guy, go to the bedroom. I suck his cock and my Master fucks me. I REALLY enjoyed the fuck from my Master. The guy, well, he was ok, I guess. He was really nervous and was about to cum the moment I started to suck him, so I had to really back off on my cock sucking skills as he couldn’t take it. When finally he let go and came in my mouth, my first thought was…..wow, he is really salty!!!! Then my Master wrapped it up and we left. THAT was a QUICKIE, INDEED!!!

After we left, my Master said that he got the vibe that the guy was maybe not actually on a hall pass from his wife. We don’t want to get into issues where everybody, whether there or not, is not consenting. I’m glad my Master feels that way.

He was proud of me! (blush and smile)

TMI Tuesday

“The emotions aren’t always immediately subject to reason,
but they are always immediately subject to action”

Quote from philosopher-pyschologist William James

Laughter: What makes you laugh?

Lots of things make me laugh. My Master is hilarious and makes me laugh all the time. I think humor is very, very important!

Anger: This past week, who or what really pissed you off? What happened?

Honestly, I can’t really think of anything that pissed me off this week. I guess I did get somewhat mad at a friend who told me she would have to check her calendar in response to my lets get together (coworker not a sex partner). And then she never got back to me. I felt mad and rejected. awwww. oh, well, onward.

Fear: What phobia did you have but overcame?

I used to be deathly afraid of heights and I’ve somewhat overcome that. (The helicopter ride in the Bahamas kind of cured me. LOL)

Surprise: Recently, what unexpected act or behavior did you experience in your sex life?

Um, well, the last time we went on a playdate, I was actually on my period. I had a tampon in and still wanted to play, but only like me giving oral and so forth. Surprisingly, the woman of the couple we were playing with fucked me in the ass with a strap on dildo. I was surprised, but went with it as my Master was encouraging me. Also, Master bought me a really cute sundress!

Trust: Many on-going relationships have a certain predictability about them. Does that certainty translate into trust?

I’m not sure about that. I mean I totally trust my Master, but he is definitely not always predictable.

Excitement: Who do you excite?

I hope that I excite my Master. And I also hope that I excite whatever play partners we encounter.

Bonus: What intimate activity do you share with your partner, something that is meaningful to your relationship? For example Sunday breakfast in bed, cooking, maintenance spanking, etc.

There are sooo many things! I serve him coffee in bed and we often sit beside each other and get on our computers and converse and share as we do. We also text like crazy to each other. We spend a LOT of time together and we never tire of it. We’ve been married for 8 years! Things only get better.

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Phone Call to “Callie” and “Conner”

Last night, my Master told me that we would be talking to a couple of which he had described to me at an earlier time. I was very surprised, actually, and had forgotten all about them. “Callie” was Dominant and “Conner” was submissive. This was interesting as I had never been in contact with a real life couple where the male was submissive. “Callie” was also a switch and so my Master said that in scenario, he would dominate all of us, and that there would be some domination by “Callie” of me. Oooo…that sounded interesting! I’ve never had that experience, thought, really, I feel I’ve had so little experience anyway. I was also interested in a male sub, thinking maybe friendship as a sub? I don’t know. Anyway, I was sitting on my bed, looking at blogs, checking and writing in my own blog, while my Master sat in on the bed, playing a game on his phone. Then the phone buzzed as the phone call came through. I instantly became petrified. I watched my Master as he chatted with “Callie” for a moment and then handed the phone to me. UGH!!! I said hello, but then really didn’t know what to say. She asked me what I was doing tonight and I said blogging and then she asked me what I was blogging about. I froze up because not only was I nervous, but also didn’t want to say that I was blogging about the upcoming phone call. It’s like I have three worlds that I live in – One, the real world that everyone sees. One where I work and have a family and watch movies. Then there is the one where we meet up with other people and share fun together, but I keep my job and so forth quiet from this world. Then there is the blogging world where I describe the worlds two and three, but still am not sure the twain should meet, you know? I already let it slip that I was on wordpress. Yikes! Maybe I’m being too paranoid? Anyway, I asked her what she was up to and honestly, I don’t remember what she said! My Master commented something and she asked what he said and YES! that gave me the perfect out and so I handed the phone back to my Master. Shew! The rest of the phone call was pretty much unknown to me, save what my Master was saying. He talked to her for a long time, more than an hour. He also talked to “Conner”. I was somewhat disturbed by the talk because he was telling “Conner” that he was not a man and that he had such a little cock that he could not satisfy “Callie” and that he, my Master, was going to show him how it was done. While he talked, my Master told me to put up my computer and told me to pay attention to his cock. I played with his cock and balls and then he told me to lick and suck his balls and cock. I probably did that for about 1/2 hour. My Master was hard from the beginning of the phone call, obviously turned on by the phone call and talk. I began to get turned on by his cock! While talking he asked me questions, like was I going to eat her pussy like a good girl, to which I replied yes. He described what I was doing to him to “Callie” and asked what “Conner” was doing, and “Conner was eating her pussy and wanted to cum, but was told no. Then he told me to get on his cock and fuck him and then back to sucking and then again fucking and oh, my Master was so hard and big and both times I had a hard time working my pussy down onto his cock, but it felt sooo good. I love to fuck his really hard cock. Finally, my Master came and then talked a bit more and then the connection was lost somehow. My Master gave me the vibrator and I came about 4 times. mmmmmmmm….very nice evening.

But then I had to ask him about what I was slightly disturbed about. I asked him why he was talking to “Conner” that way, demeaning and humiliating him. (I suspected that he “Conner” liked it, but I wanted to be sure.) He confirmed my thoughts and said that “Conner” enjoyed humiliation and wanted to see his wife fucked by other men. My Master told me that his cock got hard at these kind of statements. Ohhhhh. Ok…well, you see, I can relate there. I also like humiliation, I think. My Master has only used a little with me and actually may not have even known that what he said I took as humiliation and that it turned me on.

So, “Conner” enjoyed humiliation and my Master also said he enjoyed cuckolding. I must look it up. Cuckolding basically just means the wife has sex with other men, but I like this term.

cuckolding princess
A woman who is a cuckoldress and expects more than just another man to have sex with. This woman believes her husband or boyfriend isn’t worthy of her body so she leaves him in the cold while she finds other men to play around with. It’s usually an open relationship where he knows all about her lovers. Her husband or boyfriend might even help her get ready and pay for the date as well while he sits at home alone and waits for her big date to end. He might even watch the outcome or more if the cuckolding princess allows him to.

My Master showed me a couple of pictures of “Callie” and she really has a beautiful body. So, if we met up and played together, it could be very interesting. I will keep you updated. 🙂

Day 2 – 30 Days of Submission – Day 2 – Describe who you might submit to and how. Are you exclusively submissive in marriage or just in the bedroom? Are you submissive only in the context of a scene or in a role or throughout your daily life? Are you submissive to play partners or only in the context of a relationship?

Day 2 – Describe who you might submit to and how. Are you exclusively submissive in marriage or just in the bedroom? Are you submissive only in the context of a scene or in a role or throughout your daily life? Are you submissive to play partners or only in the context of a relationship?

I’m exclusively submissive to one – my Master. We are married. I am submissive totally in the bedroom and mostly outside the bedroom when with him. I do have some stubborn streaks and he lets me get away with a lot. But he has said that this will change, so we will see. I defer to him for most all decisions, but on the other hand, I have a career. His way of thinking is, that if it is not something that he has stated beforehand, or if he is unavailable, then I am to make my best guess. (I would also add that if I forget, and don’t remember a rule, and he doesn’t say anything about it, then I tend to continue doing my own thing).

Another aspect of submission in our relationship is my being submissive to whom he tells me I must. We sometimes “play” with others, usually couples and not always into BDSM. But that doesn’t stop my Master from getting what he wants out of the play. When we play with other couples, we play together in a group usually and he orders me throughout the play, telling me to suck cock, eat pussy, etc… He enjoys seeing me be used and servicing others. He enjoys seeing me be jealous by his interactions with other women. But, he is so good that I honestly don’t feel bad. He still makes me feel number one. And I want to please him. 🙂

Phone Call

My Master informs me that we are scheduled to talk with a couple tonight on the phone.  The woman is Domme and the man is sub.  Hmmmm…that will be interesting.  I hate doing these phone talks, though, because I never know what to say.  I find that I feel kind of stupid, because I clam up and can’t think of a single thing to say.  sighhhhhh….oh, well, I will try.  Wish me luck. I’ll report back soon.

Saturday Night with “Ben” and “Beatrice”.

Not their REAL names, of course, but we did meet up with them last night. I was busy talking on the phone to my Mom and I got a text from my Master and he said, “Plans tonight. Get ready.” Yikes! I only had an hour!!! Okay…bye to Mom and then jump in the shower and wash hair and shave, including my lady bits. My Master likes me shaven completely. I ask him to check me and he approves.

The plans were to meet up with another couple who just wanted to have same bed sex and then see what happens. They said this was their first time doing this. We met at their apartment, which was really cute. Ben had dark hair and was a bit stocky. Beatrice was also dark-haired and was a little “fluffy” as we like to say. I was definitely the shy one of the bunch, and the less talkative. Fortunately, they brought out a bottle of wine and I started to feel a little more relaxed. After quite a bit of talk, we started to make out on opposite ends of their very large vinyl couch. I was thoroughly enjoying myself, because I LOVE to kiss my Master. My Master started to undress me and we started making out heavier. Eventually, things led to the bedroom and we started to have sex – us on our side of the bed, and them on theirs. Then my Master told me to reach over and touch Beatrice. I hesitated because I was not sure she had any bisexual inclinations and didn’t know if that would be welcome or not. My Master then asked her if she minded. She replied the affirmative and so I began to fondle her fairly large tits. I think they were a nice size, personally. They were bigger than mine, but I don’t think her nipples were as nice as mine even though her nipples were one thing in the pics that were sent to him that he said that he DID like. Soon I was told to eat her pussy, which I, of course, complied. I really, surprisingly to myself, enjoy it. I especially enjoy it if the recipient is showing that she likes it. As soon as my mouth covered her clit and surrounding area, she started making noises and before a few minutes were up, she came. Wow! I love that feeling of success that I feel! A little later, I made her cum with my mouth again. She screamed that time. My Master fucked her and Ben fucked me – hard. I also sucked his cock, gagging several times while he moaned his pleasure. On and on we went for quite some time. Finally, my Master needed me to pay attention to his cock. I happily went to him and sucked his cock and soon he was fucking me, smacking my pussy and tits and his huge cock in my pussy was so welcome and it hurt like a m_______. He was thrusting really hard into me from the edge of the bed and I was yelling, Ow, upon each thrust. After a time, he switched it up a bit and positioned himself so that he was entering me a little more easily. Oh, how I LOVE his cock! mmmmmmmm…

The entire encounter with Ben and Beatrice was pleasant and fun! I made Beatrice cum twice, but I’m not sure that she came at any other time during the night, not even when her husband was banging her in the pussy and in the ass and choking her a bit upon her request. I know my Master came twice. I’m not sure if Ben came? He was semi-hard on and off all night. I didn’t make him cum when I sucked him, which disappointed me. 😦 I thought it was strange that he didn’t cum all night? hmmm…oh, well, I shouldn’t say that at all, because I never came either! LOL I never cum when we play, though. I take a long time to cum. Nevertheless…I think a good time was had by all. They wrote an email the next morning to say that they enjoyed us and hope we can hook up again. Not sure if we will, though, because I don’t think my Master was terribly attracted to the female. On the other hand, I know he enjoyed me. That for me, was the BEST part of all!

What are the pros and cons of sharing your Master? – A blog post dictated by my Master.

My last post on this subject said that I was going to post the answer on tomorrow after I had thought about it. Needless to say, I continued to think about it. I’ve also been busy and not taken the time to write because I was sick with a bad cold for a week and then spent a week trying to catch up at work. But, my Master reminded me that I had better get busy with the posts, and my other chores, because the week is sliding by.
The pros and cons of sharing my Master. Where to start on this post? First background information. I have always known that my Master would love to have 2 or maybe 3 submissives. We talked about it way at the beginning of our getting to know each other phase. I remember telling him that I didn’t know if I could handle that – not being the ONLY one. He told me that he would never add someone until I was ready. Well, I thought, I will NEVER be ready, so I guess I don’t need to worry about that! As time progressed, I always knew that some of my Master’s great fantasies included other women. Before I met my Master, I had never had any kind of sexual experience with another woman. And then, gradually, gradually, over the time we have been together, I guess he (My Master) has really slowly put his plan into action. He’s so good, you know, that I never really saw it coming. But all that is another, or several other posts.
I think I will use the initials of PLAYING WITH OTHERS to help me discuss the PROS of this issue. I’m sure that I could think of a million things, both pro and con, but I’m going to go with this, I think.
PRO P – Being submissive, I really, really want to PLEASE my Master. Since I know that he wants to have other pussy, other than my own, then sharing my Master would definitely be a way to please him. It is quite amazing to myself to realize that I really and truly grow deeper into submission all the time, which shows itself to me in different ways, but one most significant is that I want to please him more and more as time goes by. He makes me want to, I think.
PRO L – I LOVE my Master and I know that he LOVES me. Because of this, I know that he would never do anything to break my trust in him. He promised long ago to take care of his precious treasure and so far he has kept his word and been the most awesome of all Masters, not to mention most awesome guy of all!
PRO A – APPEAL – There really is an appeal to this for me, too. I love sex, what can I say. And my Master says that he doesn’t want other sex without me. So if I can be involved, in some way, in all sex, even with another? Then it’s win/win for me, right?
PRO Y – YOURS – I’m his. enough said.
PRO I – INCREASED self-confidence with my abilities. When I please my Master, my self-confidence improves. When I submit to sex with another man or woman, per my Master, if I do a good job, as in I give an awesome blowjob, or eat some pussy to make some other girl happy, then my own self-confidence improves! After meeting up with another couple to have sex, and they want to meet again, I know that part of it is because my Master is really good, but also, I know that I have appeal, too. That’s especially nice when I hear compliments from the other couple to tell me that I have done a good job.
PRO N – NEW – new things are often fun and exciting!
PRO G – GOING OUT – Getting dressed up to go out and play is like going on a date with someone new as well as with your best friend! I love to get dressed up and go out. And I’m not talking about dressing up in BDSM gear, although, that sounds like it would be fun! I’m just talking about the anticipation of going out on a Friday or Saturday night, dressing up and looking good, or trying to look good. It’s a lot of fun!
PRO W – WIN/WIN – If I get to have fun, and at the same time, so does my Master, then it really is a win/win!
PRO I – INCREASED SELF-CONFIDENCE with my appearance. When I’m told by my Master that I am desirable, it is soo incredibly awesome. It is definitely multiplied when someone else confirms it. It makes me feel really good, when someone that I sucked off, tells my husband that it is the BEST blowjob that they’ve ever had! WOW! That really is a confidence booster! And if they talk about remembering their hands in my soft hair? Well, you KNOW that makes me want to go buy conditioner rather than the 2 in 1 shampoo/conditioner? Right??
PRO T – Man, if you can trust your guy to have sex with another woman and STILL want you the best? Then, really, REALLY you must have TRUST.
PRO H – HANGUPS – honestly, some hangups go out the window. Like how, for example? Well, I’m, shall we say, not in my 20’s. And if a 20 year old wants to fuck me, then I’m suddenly a MILF! That hangup? ….out the window!
PRO O – OTHERS?- actually, there can be a lot of fun in others… as I’ve had the pleasure of experiencing, due to my Master!
PRO T – TAKEN – Doesn’t that word just make you wet? Well, it does me. I love the thought of being MADE to submit. But, only because I have such trust in my Master. It’s taken me awhile to see what others meant when they said that. I mostly didn’t believe it. Time changes things, however.
PRO E – EXCITING – It really is exciting to go out with someone new. Remember the feeling? If you are in a stable relationship and have been for awhile, then you know remember how exciting it can be to date. It also is a drag to go home and wonder and wonder about where you stand and what the future holds. But if you already have that stability and yet can still have exciting times together with new experiences…it is simply awesome!
PRO R – REAL LIFE – After going out for a kinky night of fun, you then have to get to real life – back to job, maybe kids, your same old, same old. But if you can reminisce in your real life about how much fun you had, what you did and didn’t like about your last date with others, it can be enhancing! I say that because, my Master and I have had some awesome sex AFTER we came back from dates!
PRO S – SEX – And really, how can I resist that…especially if I must!

And now, the CONS, which are basically FEARS:
CON P – Fear of PHYSICAL PAIN – Being into BDSM and knowing there is a broad range of SM, I fear getting hurt. Not to get me wrong, I do like some pain. More than I used to think that I did. But I also don’t want to be seriously hurt, nor damaged. And I have an extremely sensitive clit, so direct stimulation can be painful. This is a real fear, if you are restrained. HOWEVER, my Master has done a very good job of protecting me when I’ve been with others (which has really not been that many experiences). He is very good at talking and getting into specifics before we play and to date we have played with more who were not into BDSM and none who were actually into s&m. For to me to submit to sex with others is me being dominated by him, so this kink can be satisfied without having for me to being submitted to another master or mistress.
CON L – LOSING love, affection, time together – another fear – that I might lose my Master’s love or affection to another. Again, he has stated that he doesn’t want sex without me, but I still have that fear.
CON A – AFFECTION for another – basically jealousy. Seeing my Master show affection to another can have conflicting emotions. On the one hand, I am often happy to see him show affection to someone because I know that it makes them feel good, just like I like it when I receive affection from someone else. But, still, the pangs of jealousy attack. And I’m also aware that this is a plus for my Master because he likes to see me a little jealous.
CON Y – YEARS from now – how will that play out? I fear this future because I am in my late 40’s now and age is not pretty. Men usually are able to “have” younger counterparts because it is socially and culturally acceptable. Older men are seen as distinguished and good looking when bald and/or gray. I myself am attracted to all kinds, including bald and gray. The funny thing is – my Master is SEVERAL years younger than me. Someday, it will be quite a bit more noticeable than it is now. Look at Hugh Heffner, the playboy mansion owner and mogul. Not only is he still considered sexy, but he has tons and tons of young girlfriends and has continued to marry over the years! There is no female counterpart in the business of sex.
CON I – ILLNESS – I am totally not interested in getting a transmittable disease or virus. ugh…enough said. That is the advantage of playing with couples, I think.
CON N – NEAR OR FAR – Sometimes we have gone to play with others quite some distance away. This is safer as far as the likelihood of meeting a coworker or something. Because I AM in the closet about my kinks. But driving far away to meet up with others is a pain, no doubt.
CON G – GAG – ok, so I have a gag reflex. I have been told that I give awesome blowjobs. I like that. I fear I may come upon more or less a rival that might not have a gag reflex and again, jealousy! Sometimes, I think that being able to give awesome head is a plus for me even if I feel bad about myself for other reasons. I really don’t want that taken away, but inevitably, playing with others will lend itself to eventually meeting someone with great ability also, or maybe even better.
CON W – WAKING to find something to make me jealous. So far in our play, we have only played for an evening. We have not spent the night anywhere. I know my Master has talked about getting a sub to live in. One that would be a girlfriend for me and a girlfriend for him, so to speak. I don’t know how that would EVER work out, because honestly I can’t see somebody wanting a place like that, but I guess there must be out there somewhere. But, in any case, we have often discussed, because I have asked, how certain things would work in his envisioning. We have discussed how a live-in sub would work – kind of like a roommate. I’ve asked about sleeping arrangements. He has talked about having a sub on each side of him. We used to have a king-sized bed, so that might have worked, I guess, but then I’ve often wondered how I would feel if I woke to see the two of them caressing or having sex? Or waking to see the two of them asleep, but with arms around each other or something else exclusionary. I know my Master tries to alleviate my fears, but jealousy is there.
CON I – INDIFFERENCE – Another fear. What if my Master started to see me with indifference? Or what if the other sub saw me indifferently? jealousy.
CON T – TEASING – My Master likes to tease me. It is true. However, sometimes teasing can be unknowingly hurtful or just to the right of jealousy.
CON H – HUMILIATE – I know that my Master actually enjoys some humiliation of me. And I also know that he refrains because he does not want to hurt me. I can appreciate this venue of domination. I’m afraid, as jealousy once again rears it’s ugly head, that humiliation might become more prominent and perhaps might even come from another sub geared toward me. I’m not sure how I feel about that. I might even enjoy it, because of the vulnerability factor, the smallness feeling factor. But, I also know that my Master thinks of me as his treasure, so I know that he loves me despite a humiliating scene. I’m not sure about another sub. Or what if the other sub started receiving what I thought should be for me?
CON O – ORGASMS – You would think that this would be in the pro section. Here is the thing. I take a very long time to reach orgasm. On the one hand, it makes for awesome orgasms. On the other hand, I’m jealous of those that reach it so easily, even if it only appears to be a small orgasm. What if in playing with others, I see that happening and become extremely jealous. I guess in this particular instance, I am thinking of a long-term second sub, because when we play with others, I do not usually come, even though I enjoy myself. I do love to see others come. I just don’t know how I would feel if there was a live in sub who was constantly “outdoing” me, so to speak.
CON T – TEMPER – I often get on my Master’s nerves. I don’t like it when I make him lose his temper. He is never violent or anything. It just makes me feel so bad. I worry that all my insecurities will wear on him and then he might be likely to lose his temper.
CON H – HEARING – One time, when we were playing with others, I kept hearing my Master talking about how awesome this woman was that he was fucking. I did have a good time, but felt uneasy and very, very jealous. Come to find out, later, that he was actually talking about me, but I didn’t know. It was one of the first times that we played with another couple and we were all together on one bed and when he said “look at that ass!” and things like that, I thought he was talking about her. I tried to be happy about that, but I was so freaking jealous! He said that he had said a lot of stuff like that to try and show me that he was including me in his sex and even was touching me a lot, but I was not even aware of his touch.
CON E – EXCITEMENT without me. Again, the jealousy issue. I get jealous when even hearing about my Master talking or texting with another. To his credit, he has reassured me that he is just trying to make the other person feel good, as he should.
CON R – RIVAL – I worry about anyone becoming a rival for my Master’s attentions. Sharing is not the same as someone wanting it ALL, so to speak. I, do want it ALL, but am not willing to share it ALL with someone else. I fear that someday, someone will come along, perhaps thinking that they want to be a second sub, but then decide they want it ALL. And what if, at that time, my Master agrees.
CON S – SEX without me. I know, jealousy – the root of most fears!

Well, that wraps it up…my pros and cons of sharing my Master or playing with others. I kind of sense that Sharing my Master might entail more of a second sub aspect, whereas, playing with others, might be more of a play type thing. I tried to cover both aspects. Any thoughts out there?

Day 3: How did you discover you were kinky?

I always had a fetish for being spanked and for being controlled.  It really was a turn on for me with my first sexual partner to be TOLD to do things  – mild though they were…such as to take my clothes off …NOW…even if riding in a car with him at night.  Years later…when internet became readily available to me, as I searched for spanking stuff, I came across BDSM stuff, though had NO clue what it was.

Then, when I met my Master.  He taught me so many things….so, so many.  I remember when I first started embarking into real BDSM with him, who was quite experienced, we would talk about limits and what we liked.  I remember that at the time I didn’t like really hard spanking.  I remember saying that I didn’t want marks ever left.  Wow! Have I changed!  I know want more, more, more.  I like it harder.  I WANT marks left.  I feel proud of marks and I actually feel sad if I have been spanked and then the next day don’t see anything, which actually is pretty often.  I don’t think I mark easily.  😦  I also wanted no part of having sex with others…..LOL…Wow!  Have I changed!  Now, I enjoy when we swing.  I still don’t know about a second sub, but, my Master is good, really, really good.  He is the one who very subtly changes me into what he wants.